Ebook: To be a friend is fatal: the fight to save the Iraqis America left behind

Part One. Jesus and Basketball -- Yaghdan -- Incoming -- USGspeak -- Raise High the Blast Walls -- Fallujah -- Fugue State -- Human Rubble -- Part Two. The Insurgent of West Chicago -- Homeboy -- The Dog's Head -- Part Three. Wake Up -- Bureaucrats -- Journalists -- The List Project -- Pod 23 -- Waiting -- Politicians -- George W. Bush -- Barack H. Obama -- Past Is Prologue -- Game Over -- Subjective Fear.;This book describes how the author, as a USAID reconstruction coordinator, attempted to take his own life after failing in Iraq, an experience that led to his founding of The List Project, a seven-year mission to help Iraqis find refuge in the United States. In January 2005 Kirk Johnson, then twenty-four, arrived in Baghdad as USAID's (US Agency for International Development) only Arabic-speaking American employee. Despite his opposition to the war, Johnson felt called to civic duty and wanted to help rebuild Iraq. Working as the USAID's first reconstruction coordinator in Fallujah, he traversed the city's IED-strewn streets, working alongside idealistic Iraqi translators -- young men and women sick of Saddam, filled with Hollywood slang, and enchanted by the idea of a peaceful, democratic Iraq. It was not to be. As sectarian violence escalated, Iraqis employed by the US coalition found themselves subject to a campaign of kidnapping, torture, and assassination. On his first brief vacation, Johnson, swept into what doctors later described as a "fugue state," crawled onto the ledge outside his hotel window and plunged off. He would spend the next year in an abyss of depression, surgery, and PTSD-crushed by having failed in Iraq. One day, Johnson received an email from an Iraqi friend, Yaghdan: People are trying to kill me and I need your help. That email launched Johnson's now seven-year mission to get help from the US government for Yaghdan and thousands of abandoned Iraqis like him.