Ebook: Hit so hard: a memoir

"Patty Schemel's story begins with a childhood surrounded by the AA meetings her parents hosted in the family living room. Their divorce triggered her first forays into drinking at age twelve and dovetailed with her passion for punk rock and playing the drums. Patty's struggles with her sexuality further drove her notoriously hard playing, and by the late '80s she had focused that anger, confusion, and drive into regular gigs with well-regarded bands in Tacoma, Seattle, and Olympia, Washington. She met a pre-Nirvana Kurt Cobain at a Melvins show, and less than five years later, was living with him and his wife, Hole front-woman Courtney Love, at the height of his fame and on the cusp of hers. As the platinum-selling band's new drummer, Schemel contributed memorable, driving beats to hits like "Beautiful Son," "Violet," "Doll Parts," and "Miss World." But the band was plagued by tragedy and heroin addiction, and by the time Hole went on tour in support of their ironically titled and critically-acclaimed album Live Through This in 1994, both Cobain and Hole bassist Kristen Pfaff had died at the age of 27. With surprising candor and wit, Schemel intimately documents the events surrounding her dramatic exit from the band in 1998 that led to a dark descent into a life of homelessness and crime on the streets of Los Angeles, and the difficult but rewarding path to lasting sobriety after more than twenty serious attempts to get clean. Hit So Hard is a testament not only to the enduring power of the music Schemel helped create but an important document of the drug culture that threatened to destroy it."--Publisher's description.;Come back when you grow up -- Flaming youth -- One o' the girls -- New town -- Credit in the straight world -- Doll squad -- Sybil -- Jabberjaw -- Godsend -- Son of a gun -- Rock and Rio -- Heavy -- Asking for it -- Beautiful son -- Live through this -- Loaded -- Playing your song -- Take everything -- How to buy drugs in New York City -- Patient Pat -- The art of the four-day detox -- Sister -- Shut the door -- I'm drumming as fast as I can -- One way or another -- Use once and destroy -- Soon -- Taking care of business -- Walks up on St. Andrews -- Buying drugs in L.A. -- Six months gone -- Bringing it all back home -- The end of the line -- Pink turns to blue -- Occupational hazards -- A day in the life -- Rock bottom no. 1 -- Back to school -- Re/lapse -- Privilege set me free -- Temperatures rising -- Je t'aime ... moi non plus -- Walking with a ghost -- In and out of grace -- A northern soul -- Something electrical -- The difference.